Section 1: The Shock of Sleep Deprivation When you become a father of twins, nobody really prepares you for the kind of sleep deprivation that you face. I had read it before, heard jokes about it, even mentally tried to brace myself for it — but when it started, it shook me in a way I can’t endure. There were nights when both babies would wake up crying in turns. Just when one would sleep, the other would start crying. It felt like sleep was being rationed in minutes, not hours. My eyes would burn, my head would ache, and still I had to function — as a husband, as…

Section 1: The Day It Hit Me — I Can’t Live Like This Anymore There wasn’t a grand moment. No music in the background. Just the cold hospital air, the chaos of nurses — and suddenly, two tiny humans staring at the world for the first time. My babies. And while everyone else smiled and clicked pictures, something else was happening inside me. A storm. It hit me hard — I can’t live like this anymore. Not with this weight. Not with this guilt. Not with this broken version of myself I’d been dragging around for years. But here’s the strange part — I didn’t feel happy. I didn’t even…

Section 1: The Mirror I Was Afraid to Face There comes a point in life when all the noise fades, even the distractions tire you, and you’re left alone with a quiet but piercing and emotionally painful question: What have I really done with my life all these years? It wasn’t a single day that broke me. It was the slow piling of years — until one day, I woke up tired, lost, and unrecognizable to my own soul. One morning — I don’t remember the date, but I remember the feeling — I looked in the mirror and saw a version of myself I could barely recognize — heavier,…

Introduction: The Honest Reality of My Life Right Now Becoming a father changes you — sometimes in ways you expect, but often in ways that shake you to your core. When my twins were born, everything in my inside world shifted. The weight of new responsibility, the sleepless nights, feeding, changing diapers, financial burden — it all came crashing in at once but what caught me off guard wasn’t the chaos of parenting but what parenting revealed about me. I realized how unprepared I truly was — not just practically, but emotionally, mentally, financially and spiritually. When I looked in the mirror, I couldn’t recognize myself. My health had taken…